Keeley is four today, big four, well little four as she is only the size of a two year old but still, she has had a fab day so far, we still have lots of people coming with presents later & then her party to look forward to on Sunday with 19 small people coming along.
I had a little cry this morning, the birth of your first child should, by all rights be the happiest day of your life, it wasn't mine, it was one of the worst, Keeley was a very much wanted & planned baby, we decided to go for a spring baby with thoughts of birthday parties in the garden, sadly on the 26th Feb 2006 I went into labour, it wasnt a great day timing wise either, Gavin & I were due to be God parents to my Niece, we never made it. The day before I was admitted to hospital with a bleed & at 9.45am on the 26th I was told I needed a c-section else this baby would die, she was born at 10.07am weighing 1lb 14oz, I dont remember much of the next few days, only that she got really sick, having her Baptised in the middle of the night & being told she may not make it. Anyway three months later we brought home the smallest baby most people had ever seen 3lb 15oz. I still sadened by her first few months of life, I feel we were robbed of one of the most important days of our lifes. It was no ones fault, just one of those things. To us May 22nd is a special day as thats when she came home.
Hopefully next year I wont cry a it does get easier everyear, I save my tears for when Im on my own I dont want to share them I think people would think Im silly four years later.
She is our brave little fighter & I love her so much x x
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