At the moment everything just seems to be a blur of appointments & visiting people or rushing to preschool & toddler groups, I'd love to just take a step back for a few days but the thought of two very bouncy children stuck in with just each other & mummy for company doesn't bear thinking about, I feel as though Im on a rollercoster, even the weekends when Gavin is home dont seem to make much difference, if anything things get more hetic, he is a wonderful father & will sit on the floor & play for hours, he also lets me lie in at the weekend but more often than not the guilt gets me out of bed shortly after him. its hard work being a mummy sometimes.

Keeley starts full time school in September & Murphy can start pre school so maybe I will get a little more time to catch up on thoses jobs which have been left for the past four years?? or maybe I can get back to college & finish thoses two courses I started in 2008 :)

Keeleys cochlear implant assessment was last week we are non the wiser yet.

We are so sad that Christmas is over, this was the first year that Keeley really understood what all the magic was about & of course Murphy picked up on it as well.

We are now well in the most depressing month of the year, but the snow is cheering me up a little, even my car not starting this morning & having to walk to town this morning & then the school run this afternoon didnt dampen my spirits I guess I must of walked about 6 miles in the snow pushing the double buggy with both children in it - hard work, very very cold but good fun!!!

Im trying to organise something every month so we have things to look forward to, my friend emailed & suggested about 5 things so thats nearly half the year sorted, we are also trying to decide where to go on holiday, we both fancy Florida again but are thinking maybe the children are a little young still, but maybe we will go anyway.

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