More walking today

We went on a ghost hunt around Sudbury hall, we more of a stroll watching the children running off!! Keeley's premmie friend jack came along with his mum Liz & my friend Kerry came with her daughter Daisy, Keeley & Daisy played together nicely for a change they normaly fight over things but they has a couple of cuddles. Murph enjoyed rummbling around after the older ones, he will soon be running after them.

i love this poem it just sums everything I was feeling up, hard times but we got through it...


God bless the little child behind the plastic wall
For all she knows is the ringing of the bells and
the blurred images around her. she has been taken
from my womb without warning and I long to hold her
in my arms.

Lord, I ask in your name that my child be healed.
I am willing to accept your decision no matter what
it will be. I am willing to take on the responsibilities
for caring for this child. I am willing to give this
child love and understanding no matter the cost.

Please Lord help me to accept reality and what has
happened without explanation or warning. Help me
face the fact that this is not my fault and that
I was given a special task to complete here on Earth.

God give my child the strength to make it through another
second, minute, hour and day as each moment is
a blessing and a triumph from heaven.

God, may you give the strength and compassion
to the caregivers and nurses that take care of my child
May you keep my child protected and free from all injury
and pain.

Please take away the guilt and burden from my heart dear
Lord. It is heavy and I feel it is all my fault.
Take it away dear Lord. Sweet Jesus allow me the strength
and understanding I need to communicate with the Doctors
and Nurses.

As you see dear Lord, I am at your mercy for the life of
my child. Please leave her here on Earth and know that
I will provide all the love and understanding that
this child needs. I accept the challenge and will be
your humble servant dear Lord.

We have had a lovely couple of days yesterday we went for a walk with some friends in total there were 6 adults 11 children & two bumps, all the children were well behaved but to be fair we did have lots of snacks to keep them going & of course most were on their bikes.

Today was a little easier I went to the gym this morning while Keeley was at Nicolas & Murphy went to the crech & then I just caught up on the house work, needless to say the house still isn't very tidy with two little ones on the go!!!

Hi my name is Clare I am wife to Gavin & full time mummy to two fab children Keeley & Murphy, Gavin & I have been together for 5 years although only married for two, Keeley is our eldest aged 3 & Murphy is 1.

Keeley was born prem at 30 weeks weighing 1lb 14oz she spent 3 months in hospital, Keeley is Deaf as a result of being prem & she also has Turners syndrome, Murphy was my big term baby weighing in at 5lb 10oz & is a text book baby, he has helped heal a lot of pain.

I gave up work when Keeley was born & have deceided not to return for a few years I am lucky to have such a hard working husband who is happy to support us all.